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I’m getting so stressed out. I feel like everyone in my family is aruging with each other. I’m so fucking excited to get out of my house even if just for one night. My sister and mom and yelling at each other and I’m just so tired of it. I can not wait until I go to college. And until I go down to Florida. It’s just so sucky and I just don’t know what to do anymore.


My grandfather

So yesterday was the first time in since Christmas since I saw my grandfather, and it kind of sucked. He looked really bad. I personally couldn’t tell but the Aunt that took me with her mentioned that he looked pale and was loosing his hair. My grandfather is fighting prostate cancer in his bones. Its incurable. I believe it was almost a year ago that I was first informed that he had cancer. It was after my great-grandmother died. I don’t know how to feel about any of this. Part of me says I should be crying but another part of me doesn’t know him well enough to cry. I’m visiting him again today. I’m scared to see how his is. I’ll post with that later

So yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend. I felt uncomfortable about it. I cried but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do. I was unhappy and I felt that he was controlling in the relationship. So I ended it. That’s that

Well, today could have been better but at the same time could have been worse. So my boyfriend asked if I wanted to do something Sunday and I said, “No I’m sorry I already have plans” so he asked about Saturday and I replied “I have plans then too” and he got all pissy at me. What I truely have to say to that is, Grow the fuck up. I have plans and I’m not going to break them just for you. If a family member got hurt, or someone close to me got hurt; then yes I’d break them, but not to just hang out with someone else. I made a commitment and I plan on  keeping that. If you have a problem with it the in the words of Sergeant Ratchmen for Inglorious Bastards, “FUCK YOU” and if you think I’m going to just buckle under and let you walk all over me, as General McAuliffe responsed to the German offer of surrender — “Nuts!”. This is again a rant. Thank you to all who actually read it. And advice would be greatly appriciated


A sweet person, always there

Always knows what to say

They may be in Heaven

Or right next to you

Your own angel, just right for you

Knows how to care

You may not seem them

Or hear them, but they’re there

They know what you’re going through

They do care, more than anything

They’re your angels, and you are their charges.

They’re sent to help you, to listen

So talk with them. It will help.


So, I saw the Avengers last night with two of my friends. Holy.Crap. That was probably the best movie EVER~! I loved it soooo much. I’d see it again and again and again and then I’d buy it on DVD and then I’d watch it so many times I can recite Tony Stark’s lines. It was that good.


Went to my first prom last night. It was pretty cool. I got to dress up really pretty and get my hair and makeup done. It was themed “A Night in Paris”. Well my school so cheep that all they did was print out pictures of the Eiffel Tower and tape them to the floor. Wow creativity. I borrowed my older sister’s dress.

End of the war

This video almost made me cry. It’s just so beautiful.

“We in it shall be remembered,

We few, we happy few,

We Band of Brothers”


So on the ride home from rock climbing between me and my roommate or AnonymousBurn we both decided that I should go through and re-look at my old stories and finish or improve them with my new writing abilities so I’ll see what I can do now. And that’s probably how I’ll waste my Saturday. Sitting with a carton of folders re-reading and decided what to keep, what to redo and what to give up on over all

So I went climbing for the first time today with my roommate/ person I live with. It was super fun and I’d love to do it again. There were a lot of nice people there and I felt really accomplished when I reached the top of on of the walls. I’d like this as like a sport I’ll do like weekly, hopefully. If I can. The first time I went up there I admit I freaked and had to come down but that first climb was the same one I later completed. I had a ton of fun and I got to hang out with my roommate so cool. We talked about a bunch of random stuff on the ride home and it was so cool to just talk with someone.